On this my 40th(ish) birthday, I find myself pondering the questions I seem to ask myself a lot – just what do I want to do with my life?
I thought being an adult would mean that I would have this all figured out – but alas – no, I do not. I’m getting to the age that I want to contribute something ‘meaningful’, just not sure what that is.
Right now I am at weird place in my life in that I’m happy with my career but long for something else. I just can’t decide what that is. Or do I really want something else and just not allowing myself to be completely satisfied with how things are going? These are the thoughts that occupy my brain way too often.
But birthdays are good time to reflect on your life. I do feel overall good about where we are at. So I just need to resolve to be happy with where I’m at until I figure out what is my next adventure.
One contender for that is game development. I really like games but I have so much to learn. I love learning but it’s hard. I mean I do tutorials but then I do something wrong and then it takes me 1 hour to do a 15 minute tutorial. It’s disheartening. So I try to remind myself that it is all part of the process and to stick with those tutorials because you will get better and faster. It’s just always hard at the beginning stages of learning something new.
I’m also doing more with my webcomic! So that is nice and pretty rewarding. I am not sure how long I will do it but for right now it’s enjoyable and gives me a reason to practice art.
And I hope to post more updates here as I really enjoy getting these thoughts out.